Seventh & Sage


Thing 2

Describe Three Legitimate Fears You Have & Explain How They Became Fears

one. I'm scared of the dark. I have a deep love of horror movies and murder solving shows. Unfortunately, once the thrill of the suspense has faded, shows like Criminal Minds leave me convinced that I have a 99% chance of dying at the hands of a serial killer. Silence of the Lambs, arguably the greatest horror movie of all time, taught me that any respectable murderer will always have his night vision goggles on hand, so any time I'm in the dark, I feel like Buffalo Bill is silently slinking around my house watching me and loving that I can't see him. Maybe it's just me, but I feel like having the lights on keeps things fair. If you get to see me, I get to see you too. It's common courtesy, Buffalo Bill.

two. I'm terrified of being a disappointment.  You know the best way to make a bad thing worse?  Great expectations. Like if you pick up a cookie that looks disgusting and then it tastes gross, you ate a bad cookie ... but if you pay $17 for the most beautiful cookie you've ever seen, made at a bakery all your friends have been raving about for weeks and then, mouth watering, take a bite only to find that it's even nastier than the first cookie, now we're talking about heartbreak. My parents raised my siblings and I with unrelenting expectations and, as far as I can tell, they aren't the only ones who have set the bar pretty high for me. I'm sure that a lot of the pressures I feel are predominantly in my head, but still I fear falling short and jeopardizing the love of those I care about most by being less than they had hoped I would be.

three. I'm scared of missing out on the now. I love to dream. I love to plan. I love to imagine. I spend so much time in the future, that it's easy for me to let days fly by without being joyful about what God has given me in my life TODAY. I'm scared that I will spend my whole life dreaming of tomorrow and never learn to just stop, breathe and cherish each moment. Yes, the future is bright, but so is today.  

"Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes." James 4.14